I AM

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I am,
I am the light at dawn cascading through the trees
I am the springtime wind dancing with fresh leaves 
I am the grateful heart that beats inside your chest 
I am the sensation of true loves kiss, pressed upon your lips 
I am the joy that swells to the surface when life goes as planned 
I am the sweet sadness of the tears that fall when we fail to understand
I am the river that flows inside your veins, keeping you alive 
I am the magnetic force of the universe that you've come to know as time 
I am the calm after the midnight storm, the breath of fresh crisp air 
I am the cosmic unfolding of duality, the choice is yours to bare 
I am the support you desire in moments when you feel like you're all alone 
I am the radiant power that propels you and helps to guide you home
I am the in-between, above, below, the waking and afterlife 
Take special care of what you say after "I am" in this life
- k •••

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Conscious Uncoupling

I wonder who I will be when it’s no longer you and me 

but rather me and me 

and you and you 

one day, maybe soon, it will be you and her 

me and him 

I can’t help but wonder 

how much we shaped each other’s being 

carved our names into each other’s hearts

and we belonged there for a time 

it was wild and romantic and free 

the way you fell into my arms on that green velvet couch 

there wasn’t an inch of me that you did not claim as your own 

and you belonged to me, as much as anyone can belong to someone 

there were moments when I didn’t want to belong in your heart 

moments where silence tore us apart on the floor of that hotel room on my 31st birthday, words that etched their way into the fabric of my lungs 

we cast out dark shadows with great light that night 

fell asleep in a field as the crows cried overhead 

and we held each other tightly, 

not knowing if it was the last time our skin would heat up against the fire in our chests 

you were my everything

a force that swallowed me whole 

a bottomless depth to which I gleefully swam 

an emerald green ocean on a hot summers day 

I wonder when the frost of winter landed on the fruit of our love; 

it came without warning

it came without reason or remedy 

without declaration or denial 

the emptiness began to swallow us whole 

no contractual agreement to bind our unfolding 

the greatest love story began to rewrite itself 

from structure to formless 

from singular to limitless 

once again we find ourselves unbridled to expectation and free to truly love the places we’ve called home in each other’s evolution 

clawing and gripping at nothing 

releasing ideas of dogma and duty

sculpting a new ending, a final exploration, that the Angels will herald in heaven 

and bless from above 

because only the brave can love deeply enough 

to let each other go 

with this much beauty and innocence and grace 

My Truth

It poured forth from my lips like molasses, bittersweet with blackness that swallowed you whole 

the sheets still warm with longing, the air hot and sticky like a Louisiana summer and I 

couldn't take it back 

my truth 

it needed to be said, your soul lit on fire, smoke of uncertainty filled the room 

I wanted to regret it, but I didn't, I felt free - like I had opened the door to a cage I did not know existed 

and you

you didn't let my words sink you like pebbles in a pond after the storm 

no, you held your ground and rooted in deeper 

and I 

I really needed that, I didn't know how much I needed that until you handed it to me on wings of freedom 

and I felt free 

liberated from my guilt and shame and denial 

and it needed to be said the way the desert heat needs the rain 

it needed to float on air the way birds glide through blue skies and there were no clouds out that day 

only my perception of stormy weather but I was wrong about the forecast 

and my intuition bowed to my heart as my soul directed me into alignment 

and with the acceptance and awareness of what I need, I offered ink to the extension of our contract; a shortcut on the roadmap to my inner landscape

deeper unfolding into life's mysteries 

and my 

grateful heart hopped into that 1972 mustang and drove off into the sunset with the one who decided to say yes 

to her happiness. 

The Storm


Relationship after relationship new storms would surge, threatening to throw one of us overboard,  but I refused to take responsibility for the dysfunction emerging in each.  I wasn’t yet ready to get brutally honest with myself and own my experiences.  It was only after repeated ‘failed', or sabotaged, relationships that I began to notice a pattern - someone was always cast aside.

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